 SIENNA MARIE WISE
My whole life I had been searching for a way out of the black hole that I had been living in. I was searching for a way to heal the wounds that I carried. I had moderate success in doing so, but it was a long and arduous journey. Then at the age of 53, I found myself at a crossroads in my life. I knew that I was supposed to change careers as the work that I was doing was draining the life out of me! During my discernment process, I was handed a flyer promoting one of Dale Halaway’s seminars. When I saw Dale’s picture, I knew that he had something to teach me. I signed up for the seminar immediately.
As I walked up to the seminar entrance a week later, I was literally peeking around the corner of the door to see if my nametag was on the table just inside. I wanted to make sure that I was in the right place. I was so fearful of making a mistake that I was almost immobilized! I was like Pigpen in the Charlie Brown cartoon. I had this dark cloud billowing all around me. I was uncertain about everything else in my life but I knew for sure that I had to be in my seat when that seminar started. It was this knowledge that got me past all of my fears and through the door.
 What a journey it has been! In the past twenty-one months I have little by little cleaned away the dark cloud. I have learned to believe that I, too, can have my dreams come true. I also have evidence that supports this belief. I became an independent contractor for Oasis Life Sciences two weeks after I attended my first seminar with Dale. This fact in itself was an indicator to me that something inside me had shifted because I had vowed never to participate in another network marketing company again. Oasis is my sixth attempt. I failed miserably at the five previous opportunities. Since my beginning with Oasis, my income has grown 40 times over since my first check of less than $100. Presently my check averages $4,000 or more each month. I can honestly say that my business growth has matched my personal growth. In addition, I decided about ten months ago to start my own Life Coaching business. For me, the real satisfaction in life is assisting others in recognizing their strengths, learning to love and accept themselves, and daring to go for their dreams. My business continues to grow steadily.
My inner confidence has grown to the point of being able to talk in front of a group of 100 people. This is just short of a miracle! In the past, I was never able to speak at all in front of that many people. In fact, I would have avoided putting myself in that position by not going to the event or leaving before I could be called on. Today I enjoy an inner confidence that I’ve never known before. I am in front of business people on a regular basis putting on presentations almost everyday.
Looking back, I now realize that I had been in the process of becoming more and more isolated, trusting almost no one in my life. I had contact with only one or two people outside of work. I basically went to work and went home. I was so hurt and weighted down by the “betrayals” that I believed I had incurred that I unconsciously decided that it was safer for me to keep to myself than it was to let people in and be hurt one more time. The joke was on me though, because I was hurting all of the time. Now I recognize that it’s much better to risk being hurt, because in doing so, it also opens up the opportunity to really connect with people, and to laugh and dream in between. I now walk tall and look people in the eye. Feeling joyful is becoming an ordinary occurrence in my life. I am living to live instead of waiting to die!
 Another significant area of growth for me has been in letting go of my rage that had poisoned my life and my relationships for my entire life. Before meeting Dale, I had worked diligently to get control of the anger that I felt but was met with moderate success. The driving force was to never do to others what had been done to me. My goal was to avoid inflicting pain on anyone else. In my efforts to contain my anger, I went to the opposite extreme. I became so controlled that I was hyper-vigilant. I became judgmental and self-righteous. I was constantly on the lookout for rejection and always found it because of my need to be right about how wounded I felt and how much I had felt victimized. As I truly let go of the rage, there is no longer the need to protect or control myself because I now know that I am safe and that I am in control.
As the result of the gradual letting go of the anger and my greater ability to trust in others and myself, the quality of my relationships have grown closer and more intimate daily. I am attracting people into my life who are able to give as well as receive. People who are warm, loving and enjoy life. People who are interested in relationships built on honesty and integrity. I now know that anything is possible in my life. What a wonderful thing to feel so alive as I manifest my most important goals and dreams now. If more people were living their lives with such clarity, passion, and gratitude in manifesting their goals and dreams we would have a beautiful society. I believe as this work reaches more people, it will be. Thank you Dale, and to all those who support you in this work, for reaching me.
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